April 16, 2011

Chapter Eleven


BPOV



My eyes dart around the foyer, weighing my options.

It's either up the stairs or out the front door...

I run out of time to decide when the front door flies open, the door knob slamming into the wall behind it with a cracking sound.

I quickly dart to my left, just under the shadow of the staircase.

No one notices my panic.

No, their attention is on the fuming figure standing just inside the doorway.

His chest is heaving and his eyes are wild as they scan the crowd.

He's wearing black slacks and dress shoes and a burgundy dress shirt. But everything, from head to toe, is rumpled. His shirt is untucked, save for one flap in the front. His hair is a wild mess on his head and his jaw is covered in stubble.

He looks nothing...and everything like the Edward Cullen I knew.

The booming of his voice as he yells out again makes me jump and curl farther into the curve of the staircase.

"Esmeeeeeee!"

The band has stopped playing and even more people are crowding into the front of the house, taking in the show.

Staring.

Whispering to each other.

Hands clasped to chests in disgust.

In shock.


In judgment.

He seems to notice it, too.

"What the fuck are you all looking at, huh?"

With the flick of his hand, he slaps the underside of a tray that a member of the wait staff is holding. Flutes of champagne fly into the air and crash down on the marble floor of the foyer, smashing into pieces.

Gasps and cries of surprise sound throughout the space.

His fists are balled so tightly, that I can see how white his fingers and knuckles are, even from here. I also notice what looks like wadded up paper in his right hand.

"E-Edward?"

My head, along with everyone else's it seems, turns to see Esme and Carlisle breaking through to the front of the crowd of bodies. Her face is a mixture of disbelief and wonder, while Carlisle's seems to house nothing but anger. It's startling to see the emotion on his face, someone who has been nothing but kind and soft spoken since I've met him.

Esme takes a step forward.

"Edward, wha-"

And that's as far as he lets her get.

"Did you know?"

And his voice...

It scares me more than the shouting.

Because it's calm.

Too calm.

Eerily so.

I feel myself shudder.

His eyes are boring into Esme's and her brow furrows in confusion.

"Know what? Edward, I don't-"

He tosses the ball of paper at her feet and fists at his hair with both hands as he yells out again, even louder this time.

"Did you know?"

As Esme bends to pick up the paper, I see Carlisle make eye contact with someone above me, on the stairs, and nod to them. My head shoots up and I see Alice and Jasper standing on the top step.

Side by side, hand in hand.

Alice is staring down, her eyes boring into Edward.

Jasper nods back to Carlisle and whispers something in Alice's ear before climbing the stairs and disappearing from sight.

And still she stares, unblinking, at Edward.

And her face and body language communicate a single word to me.

Hatred.

I glance back at him, as he watches Esme reading whatever he's thrown to her.

Her face morphs from confusion to realization. I can actually see the color leave her as she looks back up at him.

"Edward, I didn't want you to-"

"You knew."

I don't know if he expected the answer, but he seems surprised.

"You...knew."

He says it again, as if he's trying the words out...trying to comprehend their meaning.

"Linc...please..."

I startle at the anger in his voice then.

"Don't! You don't get to call me that! Not anymore! Do you...do you have any idea what I've done...what I..."

And for just a sliver of time, I see something that looks totally out of place on his face.

Vulnerability.

But he straightens up and shakes it off, steeling his face and spewing more words.

"You lied to me my whole fucking life!"

Carlisle erupts then.

"You WILL NOT speak to your mother that way."

At this, Edward scoffs.

"Mother? Right. Is that what you call yourself? Hmm? Esme?"

His face twists with revulsion as he looks upon her.

Esme whimpers and covers her mouth with her hand, shaking her head back and forth at him.

Not as a reply, but as a plea.

Please. Stop.

Turning to glance around the room, his eyes land on Alice and he stops. They lock eyes and a wicked smile plays out on his face.

"Well, well. If it isn't the lucky bride."

Alice's nose flares and her hands ball at her sides.

Walking over to another server, who stands frozen in place, he snatches a flute of champagne from the tray he holds and raises it up toward Alice.

"To the bride, ladies and gentlemen. Allison, isn't it? Congratulations! I bet you fit right in around here, don't you, Allison? Got yourself a nice little set up going, huh? I bet you're glad they pulled you out of whatever dingy little shit hole they found you in-"

And it's Edward's turn to be cut off. Faster than anyone has time to stop her, Alice is flying down the stairs, one hand sliding along the railing and one hand holding up the train of her dress.

"You son of a bitch!"

A streak of white and she's there.

A tiny fist flies and shock registers on Edward's face before he masks it with a sarcastic smile. He turns his head and spits blood from his split lip onto the foyer floor.

She punched him.

"Well, hello to you too, little sis."

Alice is fuming now, fisting both sides of her dress and screaming at him.

"You're so fucking selfish! I don't even know you and I hate you! Why did you have to come here? Why didn't you just stay the fuck away?"

She's screaming at the top of her lungs and Jasper comes out of nowhere, grabbing her up in a hug and shushing her. She buries her head in his chest and wails.

Edward gulps down the last of his champagne and tosses the flute at the wall, shattering it.

He eyes Jasper and Alice and shakes his head.

"Fucking pathetic."

Jasper's head snaps up.

"What did you just say?"

Carlisle tries to diffuse.

"Jasper, why don't you take Alice upstairs?"

Jasper and Edward continue their stare down of one another, until Carlisle speaks again, firmer this time.

"Jasper."

With an arm around Alice, he glares once more at Edward and starts up the stairs.

"Please, everyone, if you'd make your way through the back, we'll get your coats and valet tickets taken care of."

Edward pipes in again.

"Yeah, folks. Show's over now. Nothing to see here anymore. So fuck off."

"Edward, please. Don't. Stop this now. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. About everything. About Jo-"

"No!"

Booming.

Livid.

"Don't you dare speak her name to me! Don't you ever say her name again! You think sorry makes it okay?"

He stretches his arms out wide in question.

"You think sorry makes it all go away? You think it matters?"

More tears from Esme as Carlisle continues to rally the crowd of guests to the other side of the house, faster now. I notice Kate has stepped up to help him.

It's all escalating so fast...

I feel my nerves spike as the crowd thins out. But I don't dare move. I grasp the stair railing tighter, praying I stay unnoticed by him.

"Please, Edward. Please!"

He continues his tangent undaunted.

"Please? Begging doesn't make it go away! I begged. I hit my fucking knees and begged, Esme!"

Louder and louder.

I can almost see the control shedding off of him as he rants.

"I begged and pleaded and cried like a little bitch! And what happened? Nothing! NOTHING! I still lost her!"

It feels like slow motion.

He grabs the tall vase of flowers on the table in the center of the room, and with a growl he hurls it.

Up.

Up and over.

"No!" Esme screams out as the mess of glass and water collides...with the painting.

The space needle.

The force he puts behind it causes the canvas to shred and tear, right down the middle.

A shower of water and glass...roses and lilies rains down on the floor.

The painting is destroyed and Esme is sobbing now.

Edward looks exhausted, weary beyond his age as he slumps down to the floor. He digs the heels of his hands into his eyes and is mumbling under his breath.

I'm shocked when I'm actually able to make out his words from across the room.

Over Esme's crying and...sirens?

"My baby...my baby girl."

Two police officers appear in the front doorway and take in the scene with caution, their hands resting over their holstered weapons.

One of them speaks.

"Dr. Cullen?"

Carlisle, who is trying to console Esme, answers. Quietly.

"Yes, that's me." He nods his head toward where Edward is still crumpled on the floor, his hands still covering his eyes. The officer nods back and they begin to approach Edward.

Esme's lifts her head from his chest and look between him and the officers.

"Carlisle, no. No!"

"I'm sorry, Ezzie."

And you can see it.

All over Carlisle's face.

He is sorry.

It's the only crack in the anger, but I can see it there.

He's given up.

"Get your fucking hands off me!"

Edward struggles against the hands of the officers as they try to lift him from the floor.

In the blink of an eye, they have him on his feet and against the wall, cuffing his hands behind his back.

He breathes hard and fast through his nose as they guide him out the front door.

"I hate you! I fucking hate you both!" Edward yells as he's being forced to move down the stairs of the porch.


Carlisle is restraining Esme from running after Edward. She's struggling against him and he's talking lowly to her, trying to soothe her. She's yelling out Edward's name and sobbing.

I see my chance and slip out the front door. I try to stay close to the house and in the shadows, making my way toward my car.

And then I feel it.

Creeping up my spine and wrapping itself around my heart.

Squeezing it like a vice.

The shiver.

Oh God.

I stop in my tracks and turn slowly.

The officers are standing on the walkway speaking to the valet attendant

I notice a sporty looking black car set up and onto the lawn, the driver's side door still ajar.

Guests are pointing and gawking and gossiping amongst themselves.

But it all falls to the wayside when my eyes land on him.

Cuffed and seated in the back of the police cruiser.

The side of his forehead is pressed to the glass and his eyes are closed.

He almost seems asleep.

Still.

So still.

And then his eyes are open.

Open and blue and staring.

At me.

He looks genuinely...shocked.

I can't look away.

The reality of the situation...of what just happened in that house dawns on me viciously.
His pain.

Their pain.

His words.

'My baby...my baby girl.'

My eyes tear.

My eyes.

I feel the strangest stinging sensation behind them and then there it is.

Wetness.

My vision of his haggard, confused face becomes blurry.

And when I blink, a single tear falls.

And then his face isn't blurry anymore.

I can see him.

Edward.

A man.

He's just a man.

No power.

No authority.

No hostility.

No anger.

No cocky stance.

No hurtful words.

Just a man...in pain.

His face tilts to the side in question.

And I watch the words form on his lips.

My name.

Isabella.

He says it as a question, I can tell, even though he doesn't ask it.

What are you doing here?

I shake my head back and forth, wipe my cheek and spare one more glance at him.

One last glance.

And then I turn.

And I run like hell.



75 comments:

rileyks3 said...

Yea!!! Got to read this chapter that I didn't get to read today! Totally awesome Jada! OMG....he saw her! WOW! Can't wait to see what happens next. :)

Gina said...

There is something so captivating about the way you.... write.. but its more than that? like maybe the way you space it? and it flows with my brain? and makes it more dramatic? I dunno. but I FLOVE you! I just re-read this chappy for the bazillionth time and can.not.wait. for more!!!
@ginareads
Love forever, gina ;)

robskitten said...

I was quite distressed when i couldn't access this chappie earlier on ffn but ecstatic when i saw you were setting up your own site. now i have read it and it's as good or better than the first ten. keep up the good work!

Joy said...

The blog looks fantastic! Can't wait for more...

Edmazing said...

Such a great chapter. God, his pain is just so real. And deep. I just feel crushed for him.

And such a beautiful new home! I love it.

Amelia said...

So I just found out about this story today, when someone was looking for it after it got pulled from FFn.net. And I have devoured it. It just sucked me in from the get go. Its so well written and your characters are so well developed, and even though how Edward speaks to Bella is deplorable I as a reader understood that it wasnt really about Bella. I havent been this drawn into a fic in a while Im very happy you have just moved it instead of deleting it. And I cant wait for the next update.

lacramici said...

hey, new reader here *waves*. I began to read this on FF, and i'm glad you didn't gave up when was pulled.
like your story, very well written and very, very, very, very, intriguing. after cp. 11 i'm seein' a ray of hope for B&E. curious to see where you'll take this story.
Waiting (im)pattiently for an update

L.

PS: i subscribed to this blog when was still under construction, didn't received any notification yet. thought you want to know
PPS: scuze' my bad english

preciousfairymom80 said...

Jada Hun, the site looks terrific!!! I'm so sorry to hear about it being pulled but can't say I'm totally disappointed. Look at all the pretty you have going on here!!! I read and reviewed over at FF.net but I'll go ahead and leave a review here for this chapter.
Your Edward is driving me nuts!!! J/s...
Anyways, congrats on the fuck-tastic site and I'm waiting anxiously for the next installment!

happysinglemom said...

please update soon...

Kismit said...

Can I just say how much I FLOVE the fact that you got this up and running within a day of it being pulled? I had just started reading this the night before its eviction from FF and awoke wanting more. I can't believe I only had to wait a matter of hours!!! This new home is fantastic - RoseArcadia did a fantastic job - makes it much nicer to read than the boring FF site anyways!

I can not wait for the next chapter! I can't believe he completely destroyed her wedding, banged up the house, and then Carlisle had him arrested! Wow!

Olena said...

Sorry about FF being a dick (or whoever reported the fic). Thanks for making the blog and continuing the story! Much love.

hungry4more said...

Wow. Found your story last week. I put on my list to read. Imagine my disappointment yesterday when ffn made it go poof! And also imagine my delight when through the magic of twitter I found it here! Your story is sooooo intriguing. I can't wait to see what happens next!

Gigi said...

Oh thank god! I was totally freaking out when I couldn't find fyw on ff anymore! I adore your story so, so much. *breathes a sigh of relief* Now I can relax a bit... Thank you for getting this up so quickly, Jada and rosearcadia! The site looks AMAZING!!!! ;-)

Esme Cullen said...

this story owns my ass .. i freaking LOVEEEEE ITTTTTTTTTT
LOVE IT DOESN'T EVEN SAY ENOUGH

tigger1 said...

It is awful your story was pulled... I am so pleased you have this site so we can continue to follow Roughie...

Klaire said...

Jaaaaaada! After this chapter does not know what to think and I can not elaborate theories!

Why Alice has so much hate Edward? And he of her? Now I give up reason for Alice, as he ruined her big day, but this hate seems to be something old.

I Want to know what was written on the paper! When he said to Esme that she lied to him all his life, I understood that he was referring to adoption, but that this is related to his having lost the baby? And what Esme knew? I am an extremely curious person and you're making me super excited! Want to know who is the mother of the baby and If when he said "lost her", the baby go away or died!

And now! " As Bella and Edward will meet again? Will it take? I think this episode will change their whole relationship, but what I most want to know is why he chose Bella. I need an Edward POV!

Jada, CONGRATULATIONS! I loved Roghie's new house and the chapter was simply PERFECT! Anxious for more!

Ketyane.

P.S I love the chapter's banner!

Cote de Texas said...

he may be just a man...but he sure is a cute man. esp. in that picture! gah.

love the new site. so much better than reading it on fanfic. this is the whole experience. it's wonderful!!!!

ok. now. teaser?????

Cote de Texas said...

one other thing - some people find it really hard to read with a black background. is there any way you could do a toggle from black to white for people like me? Twilighted.net offers that feature. Just wondering.

Kymbersmith said...

That was just eveil. Leaving that there. I have so many questions, and now I am dying for an update.

Poor Roughie. It's such a shock to the system. I don't know what else to say.

Kym

durtyrob4ever said...

I just can't say enough how much this story OWNS my ass!! So glad to see it his morning on RoAr!! So many unanswered questions...can't wait for the update!!

fanofbones said...

Jesus Christ, this just keeps getting better and better.
Brilliant. Yes. That about describes this.
His pain nearly did me in. Dammit.
She called him Linc. Huh. So he's adopted, but of course she would know that. What did he ask 'did you know'? And Alice is adopted too. But she doesn't know him.
Did Esme have a hand in his little girl dying?
Oh so many questions. But thats all in the fun of the reading.

I could just picture the look on his face when he saw Bella.

Excellent writing. The details/descriptions in your writing is flawless and beautiful.

Holding my breath until the next chapter.

fab/vicki

Moltz said...

Was very disappointed when I received my ffn notification that chapters 10 and 11 were available but could not access. Thanks for placing the link on your profile page. So glad you didn't abandon this it.

This is a very intriguing story line, I have been pondering all the possible outcomes since their backgrounds are yet to be fully explained. You have captured my curiosity and hold my attention hostage while I await the next update.

Thank again for sharing.
Moltz

tabs95 said...

It's almost as if you can feel his pain,her pain and Alice's pain.
My God the way you write..it's just..unbelievable.I can't wait to keep reading to find out what his reaction to Isabella being there is.If he goes after her,or if she goes back.

Stacey said...

I found this story when someone on Twitter was looking for it since it got pulled of of ffnet. I am so glad I found it. WOW! I haven't been able to stop reading! I haven't been this drawn into a story in a long time!

ttharman said...

Wow, just a man so sad, so broken....his baby girl. And he was so vulnerable when he saw her...Is her going to try and find her now. She knows, she has seen him....What happened to break him so bad. As horrible as he is sometimes, my heart breaks for him.

Excellent as always....you kick ass!

xx
Teresa

Nonita said...

I can't stand more to FFN!
I love your story!

elle said...

Oh. My. God. This story has been consuming me for the past two days. It is so brilliantly written. I feel his pain as if it were my own. I'll be awaiting the next chapter with bated breath! GAHHH!!!!

sachita1212 said...

I love his story, I do not write well in
English, but I read it, I think, this Edward
is so terrible, so painful, I'm afraid,
and at the same time cause me so much
Although, you're a great writer. Almost
die when the story was f.f
disappeared, but I came to your blog and
wonderful.
Thanks,

rebernardi said...

I don't even know what to say!!!
WOWWWWWWWWWWWW...
I'm dead here... staring the screen!!!
WTF just happen?! For god's sake!!!
He's broken... and now she runs like hell???
Come on Bella!!!
I'm stunned, in shock...
And I want moreeeeeee!!!
You're GREAT Jada!!!
Keep going...

Brina said...

Jada, I came upon this blog by mistake and I am SO glad I did. I just LOVE this fic. He is so twisted and in so much pain. and she needs the twisted pain that he gaves. I can't wait to see where is going.

Until next time, Much Love, PurpleBrina

ccaajjaa said...

I cannot begin to understand why FF deleted FYW but so very glad you decided to continue it here. Another great chapter can't wait to see what happens next & to find out more about E's back story. Thanks for taking the time & effort to set up your blog.

liliane_moussa said...

F**K !! Why Fan fiction idiots would delete such an AMAZINGLY written story, while there are tons of SH*T that they need to clean from their website, what were they thinking ??? Or where they ???

THANK GOD you continued your own blog and thanks to all who helped you, Thank you for continuing with this wonderfully written story, I mean the emotional atmosphere the heavy affect, but surely not angsty in the narrow sense of the word, it is so humane, so detailed so impeccably meticulous in the description of the emotions, their essence leaking through your lines, I mean the knot is certainly unique but your writing style made it even better.
Hats off to you, and hopefully you are having a new idea, gestating in the back burner waiting to be spelled black on white once you are done with the most sexy yet douchebaggery ( yet tortured soul)HAWWWWT Edward ever :)
THANK YOU :)

Nicole said...

I was recd to your story from a different fic and I am obsessed! I read all the chapters in two days(I made myself stretch it out) and I love the way you write. I can't wait to see what happens next in the twisted lives of our favorite pair.

ksw3 said...

WOW! I am caught up now. I find this story so intense that I have only been able to read a chapter each day! The bright black background bothers my eyes for some reason. I love the way it looks but it is tough on the eyes. I am hoping Bella goes to the police station after Edward. Maybe if someone just reches out for him a little. Im not sure what his response would be but maybe? Love the story! Update soon please! Thank You for it!

Cote de Texas said...

No Easter gift for us?????

InsertFangsHere said...

so glad i found this after what happened with FFN, love it hard ty

Людмила said...

I am totally captivated by this story! And I can't wait for E/B interaction again - whether it's talking or fucking

sd said...

Wow, Totally loved it, can't wait for the next chapter. Really looking forward to what's in store for us next

joli cullen said...

I learned from twitter that you put in the FF blog is fucking all the story but I thank you for continuing to love this story

horphan said...

WOW i'm glad i found your blog - thanks for leaving it in your FF profile! FF sure is fucked up, aren't they? I love FYW and about died when i couldn't find it...just disappeared from everywhere.

I am sooo anxious for your next chapter as there are so many unanswered questions! I feel badly for Edward even tho he has been such a dick to Bella. But he is so broken...so many fucked up things. Can't wait until it all unfolds. Thanks so much for continuing your story here!!

cheryl

Nic Spring said...

I found this fic today, you should thank some of the people over on the twi rec page on facebook for pimping you out. But really, I couldn't stop reading, I was just hooked!!
Gosh, when's the next update, I'm dying in anticipation.

MUSTANGSPIRIT73 said...

Awesome cant wait for the next chapter and so on ty you for writing this!! A big fan of your work!!!

desperatelover said...

Yikes, girl- this shit is hawwwwwt! The drama of this chapter almost killed me and to top it off with one of my all-time favourite pictures almost pushed me over the edge! You should be REALLY PROUD of the way you're putting this whole thing together- it's really great. Those lemons are awesome and I'm ready for the next instalment ;-} please come see us all soon!

Stella said...

I just started reading this... and only here on your blog (hope this means I'll actually get the update alerts, unlike with some 'other' sites, lol). Roughie can be hard to take but I don't see what the huge issue was oh well, not the point. This is a good no excellent fic. When Bella is tired and in a blur, I feel the same way in my mind. That is some powerful writing. And wow what a spot for me to pick up at! I love all the mystery. Looking forward to its unraveling

so said...

jada,
I've been checking everyday...no pressure* Can't wait to see what happens with Roughie...
thank you for writing*

Lulu said...

Stalking your blog. Just to check since I don't get any email updates for Savage and ICBWR(she's on this site too since she got pulled) even though I am registered. I get paraoid that I am missing one of your updates. I so want to know what happens next. Like I said many times before, you have created the most unredeamable Edward ever. I can't wait to see how they manage to get through it!!! No pressure... Twiddling thumbs, whistling and looking elsewhere...

Roshambo

addicted-to-bedward said...

Oh, no! This is...awful. It hurt to read this. There was so much pain radiating from him. I hope they will again and talk it out.

latuacantante said...

great history

pamcamcris23's FICtional Life said...

Well, hell... I don't know how ling I'll be able to hold off until the next chapter! And through his anguish, be saw her.... Mouthed her name... Maybe he will seek her out after all? And what he hell happened to the baby & who was the mother... And Esme really isn't his mother? Jadalulu, ju got alotta 'splainin to do!

jjwelborn said...

What a powerful chapter... this was just amazing!!!!

Jane

kat said...

Who needs FF.net anyway?
The suspense is killing me here Jada!!!!!!!

none said...

it killes me how ff.net just deletes stories.
this happened to shaysavage last week, as well.


i am glad you have this blog.
now we know where to find our roughward.

;)

mentallady said...

HI
Are you planning on continuing the story or did the FF drama turn you off to writing it?
I hope not. Just when it was getting good!
Please, continue.
:0)

ROBsDemi said...

am dying for an update!!! sooo good!!!!

ROBsDemi said...

I wonder how many other great stories are being deleted from FF and I'm missing them...sorry this is happening but happy to have found your blog!

Twilights1Fan said...

So glad you have this blog, I was saddened to see you weren't on FF and afraid I lost the story and Roughward.....

I hope you update soon dear. Thanks sweetie I miss you....Can't wait to see what happens... Will Edward chase after Bella even though he said he wouldn't ever do that?.... Oh I'm on pins and needles....

~Jennifer

Lulu said...

Stalking your blog...again. Wishful thinking that there might be an update.

I just reread this chapter and my sick theory is that since Edward was adopted, he ended up unknowingly marrying his sister/half sister or cousin. Their baby ended up with a congenital disease as a result of breeding closely related parents and she died. That is what was on the paper that he was asking Esmee about.

Also, he can't have normal sex and humilates/punishes Bella and has to have sex from behind so that he isn't reminded of sex with his wife. She could have been awful, too.

Anyway, this is my crazy theory. I am probably way off.

I hope you are not too down about FF.net and will keep writing. We are dying out here.

Lulu said...

Oh yeah. Me again. No more crazy theories and marrying sisters. I think maybe Edwards needs to run into her at the hotel while some creep is giving her a hard time. Or better yet maybe she should find him in a moment if weakness or grief and help him. That would break the ice.

Roshambo

shakespeare101 said...

I found your blog from reading another story hosted here (originally on Fan Fiction) and one of the readers mentioned your story's new home. I'm glad I found you again. I was left so intrigued by your last update... chapter 11 and I am looking forward to reading what comes next for our "couple".

I re-read this chapter and there are just so many questions about Edward and his relationships to his family and his little girl and what he is thinking about Bella's note "I'm sorry" she left for him and seeing her at his families home? I love this Bella so much, she is so vulnerable - so much so that she pulls for this desire in me to protect her from the wrath of people like Edward and even her own self-depricating thoughts. She has so much empathy for everyone, the Cullens and especially for Edward even though she only knows the one side of him... the cruel side, she just somehow seems to know there is more to him than he shows. Great story. Look forward to your next update.

ldloa said...

Are you planning to continue?

Brandy said...

please... give us MORE ROUGHIE! I can't wait to see what happens next... could this be a turning point?

k.malik78 said...

o.k first off eff FF.R we allowed to cuss here? :D I FLOVE roughie.

People who judge this story should think first.Bella went into this knowingly. she could have stopped going after the 1st time but in her own words she took too!!!!

I wanna be a fifty and roughie sandwich:D wait, fifty who? pfffft. Fifty and roughie in a fuck off lol as in a dance off but in this case a fuck off yummmmmm

Suzanne said...

holy crap woman! i just discovered this story and it has completely owned me- can't wait for more. seriously.

Sessahhh said...

Oh wow! Such an incredible chapter. I need to read it again and again. There was so much going on in that last scene. I really wish this was a movie cause I would watch this part like a zillion times. Not to mention all the pervy scenes too....

maxandmimasmummy said...

So many questions and no answers. My head is spinning and my heart hurts

isleesme1 said...

reading this chapter gave me chills. so powerful! wow

~Elli~Iris~ said...

Ch 11
“Esme!” he screams…not mom. Linc is Edward. Alice hates him. A paper…did Esme know what? “Jo…I still lost her…my baby girl…” Destroying the painting. Almost away and then he sees her. *shaking* She is running. I bet he calls now…after he gets out of jail. The paper. It has to do with his daughter but what? Mind racing…custody paper? A letter? Something that will say where she is? Legal papers for him? Is he in trouble? Did he cause the baby’s death? The mother’s? *brain is tired* Iris~Elli

luvnrob said...

This is so damn confusing!!! Who is Linc??? What happened to his baby girl?? Lord Im lost!

sarah said...

" I begged. I hit my fucking knees and begged, Esme..."

A man, just a man.

Oh my fuck, how I have missed you so.

You write with heart like no one I know, lulucakes. You are INCOMPARABLE to ANY other fic out there. Roughward and YOU, stand in a field ALL YOUR OWN.

Thank you, so so so so spoiling much for sharing with us. It is more than a privilege.

Ily,
Hearts,
Sarahxxoxoxo

luv4kristen said...

What a phenomenal story; totally captivating. Your writing is beyond amazing. Your style, your words, mesmerize me and make even the most mundane parts come alive. Edward is f'd up, Bella is too, but she has such discipline for seeing past it all and keeping her eyes on her goal. Sometimes she stumbles, but she's so grounded that she doesn't fall far. Edward, on the other hand, has suffered a tragedy so immense that he has completely lost himself. This chapter has raised SO many questions. Edward painted the Space Needle, he's Linc. I have no words for your Charlie, and Renee sounds as broken as Edward. Cannot wait to learn more. Your talent is incredible! Thank you for sharing it and this spectacular story. Gwen

Jordanfan360 said...

sooo good! really enjoying this story, even if it's pissed me off and almost made me cry. It's that good though. :)

kelly said...

Omggg that was epic. He just looks at her! Holy shit. So fucking upsetting.

What is up with this "Linc" name?

This poor family :(

Midnight Raven said...

Wow! Awesome chapter to a awesomely awful addictive story.
They are both so broken. I can't wait to find out what is up with all of them.
Why hasn't Bella googled yet?

fancastride said...

So good. He sees her she knows he does. What does Esme know?

nelarivera said...

O MY GOD!!!
i'm speachless

this chapter is pure perfeccion