Chapter 8, when he demands that Isabella meet him
at his place, 3 a.m. in the morning.
Roughie's POV
*****
The pain...it hurts so fucking bad. It stabs and digs and gouges at me.
Merciless.
Perpetual.
"Daddy?"
I look up...and there she is...bright and soft and beautiful.
My baby girl.
"Daddy's right here. Daddy's coming..."
I reach my hand out to her, but she's still too far from me. I try to rise and onlymanage to get up on my knees.
"S'okay, Daddy. No cry."
I hadn't even felt the tears, trailing down my face and over my lips.
I reach up and swipe them away, hating that she already saw it. Never wanting her to see me this way.
"I'm okay. It's okay. Come here, baby. Come and see Daddy."
My voice breaks at the end as I stare at her.
The little waves of blonde hair...her wide blue eyes and pouty pink lips.
The sound causes a sob from me, before I can stifle it.
Oh, God.
Please, please let it be real.
Her face falls then.
"I gots to go now, Daddy."
My panic is instant and severe...slicing me right down the middle as I cry out.
"NO!"
Blackness slowly curls in from every direction, billowing and swirling like smoke around the two of us.
Faster and faster it twists and circles us.
I struggle and fight against whatever immobilizes me, keeping me from rising to my feet.
Suddenly, the tempest of black stills in place.
The only sound is my heavy breathing...until I hear her little voice again.
"Carry you, Daddy?"
Her arms are lifted up, reaching for me.
Before I can react, the blackness resumes its tirade. It wraps itself around my baby girl and faster than I can blink...she's gone, just empty air where she once was.
"NOOOOOOOOOO!"
*****
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38 comments:
I got back up to log in to read this! I will definitely be donating to the cause! As always...luv ya & your awesome story!
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sob. this is too sad. i guess this means his baby is gone for sure. so sad.
I'm pretty sure it was some sort of horrific accident. Oh, I know it's going to be realy angsty, but I can't wait to read it. Tissues at the ready.
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It's so sad to read this...Wish I could read more..
I've already donated and I can't wait to read,sounds like it's gonna be really angsty and I'll no doubt have tears.
Omg! This was really angsty but I loved it. Poor Roughie... I guess I'll need a lot of tissues when I read this outtake.
*hugs*
Just donated....I CANNOT wait to read it. So freakin' intense.
Also, just donated...I neeeed to read this outtake..OMG
This is the first time I have felt an emotion other than hate for Edward! WOW! You did a beautiful job pulling the readers into his mind. I have already donated and can't wait to read the rest of this. It will help us understand more about Roughie. There is a lot of pain there and in his own way he was reaching out to Bella for her help! Even if it was thru some god awful rough sex!
I feel the tears coming already.
You're trying to kill us, aren't you, Jada.
I just can't wait for this peek into Roughie's head. It's okay if some tears are surrendered in the meantime. So worth it.
I donated a long time ago.
Thank you so much for participating in this cause.
Much love to you.
I have days of wanting to donate
pro do not know how help me
m jada charm I mourn our poor edward
tell me as I make a donation
So now here I am in tears before I have to get ready for work. Oh my Roughie, whatever happened to that baby has got to be bad, to make him into what he is (or was). It's a good thing I already donated to F4T or I'd be having to find my credit card thru teary eyes right now!
Oh Lord... I'm a mess. I can't wait to get this in the mail!! Jada, you are kicking ass with this story.
I donated a while ago and I'm even more eager to get the outtakes now. You are a master at leaving us wanting, Jada.
Thank you for donating to such a worthy cause.
I donated a while ago and I'm even more eager to get the outtakes now. You are a master at leaving us wanting, Jada.
Thank you for donating to such a worthy cause.
Already donated way back when... Was getting excited yesterday when someone tweeted only 4 more days til they start sending out the comp. Now I really can't wait!! Thanks for the teaser.
That was extemely sad. He's hurting so bad. I can't wait to read this. Donated this morning.
Tears are rolling down my cheeks - I have got goose bumps all over my body - shivers are running down my spine. This story is going to be the death of me.
I donated literally right after I heard of there being a Roughie outtake. Few things are more coveted by than this man's POV.
So painful to read but I cannot wait for the rest!
Much love! xo
Poor Roughie! Really want to know what happened to the little girl, sometimes I think she died and other times I think someone took the baby away. I do not know, but I think the girl is not really the daughter of Edward, I think he was betrayed, and only after a while discovered that the girl isn't his daughter, perhaps the paper he throws in Esme in Alice's wedding were a DNA test proving that she was not his daughter, perhaps the biological father has led her to away, I know, I'm crazy! =)
I also think that at the beginning of the fic when Edward made the proposition to Bella, he was responsible for firing her from Hunter's and also the warning of Professor Banner, I think he is behind it, these things happen coincidentally in the week of the proposition, and so sure he had that she would accept, this things might increase the feeling of guilt that he has now.
I've made my donation, congratulations on joining this cause! I can't wait for Edward's POV!
Oooo I can't wait to read this. I just made my donation today. I so excited.
I was resisting. Not any longer. I do NOT need 211 stories in my inbox! LOL!!! But I will enjoy! and for a good cause! Donation made! Can not wait for the heartfail you surely will be providing! ;) Flove you!
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oooo. I think the release is May 19th. It was so long ago when I donated.
I will have sooooo much to read this weekend.
Oh what a teaser, soo sad. I can't wait to read the rest of this, even tho it's paining me to do so! I donated last week to the cause. Thanks for the story AND the outtake.
xoxox
How does one donate from abroad? Cause the redcross website says "This site can only accept U.S. issued credit cards." and mine's from Europe since I'm from Europe. Any help would be much appreciated.
Hi watweissichdenn. You can donate to the local red cross and send the receipt to fandom4tsunami@gmail.com. I'm italian and I donated to the italian red cross:there is a link to help japan in the italian red cross site. i think it's the same in every local red cross. @jadalulu By the way...this is a wonderful story! Milly
@misskiapetta: Thank you!!
@watweissichdenn: You're welcome :) I'm super-excited: the outtake's coming.... misskiappetta
Oh no, Roughie, is there anything I can do to make you feel better?
I just read the whole outtake...it is definitely worth the donation! Roughward broke my heart! What a glimpse into his brain! And I say glimpse because there is so much left to learn! Hugs!
after i read the outtake (very well written BTW)i don't like Roughie very much... actually what i feel right now is very close to hate.yes, i feel sorry for his loss, but he treated Bella miserable... not to mention the misogynistic thoughts about women in general.
can't wait to see how he make amends in the future chapters
I donated and was able to read the whole EPOV. I have to say it is so sad that his thought were so dark about Bella. That he projected so much hate on her that was so undeserving. It is also sad and how messed up Bella is about the whole relationship.I can not wait for the next chapter!
I loved the outtake, wonderful as everything you write! Edward has a completely distorted view of Bella, for him she is a whore who will do anything for money, I understood that he was betrayed but I do not know how, but the little girl's mother should have stayed with him for his money, because he seems to think that every woman has a price and Bella's value is $ 500.
I think he call Bella more often due to the increased frequency of nightmares, because she is a valve of escape for him, as if the moment he is with her he focuses the point of not having nightmares, I guess he does not want she enjoys, this causes him out he wants to punish her and if she enjoys the punishment not being enough.
I was sad because it seems that Edward did not feel anything for Bella, only angry, I was wondering whether he did the same with other women, because he spoke Bella it was like all the rest.
I think that maybe Bella's decision to leave this, to stop seeing him and he sees her running scared of him at the wedding was what made him decide to treat himself or reconsider the life he was leading, so maybe he was apologizing for her.
Jaaada I don't know if I talked too much, the majority are my assumptions, but if I have exceeded me in spoilers, erase my comment! =)
I just donated!!! Can't wait to read the rest..
I have been meaning to write you for a while. Thank you for writing the outtake. I was(and still am) shocked by his feelings towards Bella. I knew they would be bad based on his previous actions but I never dreamed they would be THAT bad. I guess I thought he would be conflicted and still treat her badly while having a few nice thoughts that he didn't want to have but couldn't help.
I've said it before and I'll say it again. You have created the most unredeemable Edward I have ever read(and I've read a LOT) and this has made him worse. I can't wait to see how you pull this off. You've really got your work cut out for you! Not only with Edward, but with Bella to. She's got to be redeemable for herself. If that makes sense at all.
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